So Now I Get To Be A Single Former Fatty.

To some people’s dismay I blog about my life, my feelings, and the general blah that can make up one’s life.  So, I think it is time for me to discuss my marriage on here.  My marriage of almost15 years is ending.  A few years ago I realized something wasn’t right with it, and as time has went by it has been clear it is not the marriage I wanted.  Gary, my husband, soon to be ex-husband says this whole thing blindsided him but the truth is he just wasn’t listening over the past year when I said “things had to change or I had to go.”  FYI, Gary blogged about this somewhere on BlogSpot, and the blog is total crap (no offense Gary).

So what do I do from here?  Well first I run longer and I work harder and most importantly I just take care of my children.  Tomorrow I become sole shareholder of all the corporations as part of the divorce agreement, which works out as I founded all the companies. 

I was told today that I cannot multi task my way through this divorce.  Ummm, WRONG!  Divorce is hard, and I am not stupid, but I know that I am freaking superwoman!!  That’s right, freaking superwoman!  And I have not been treated as such and the fact that is bringing me to this divorce.  As soon as all the men in my life realize I can do it all and want it all, the better off we will be.  LOL   I have been devalued, taken for granted, emotional abused, and neglected way too long.  See being treated like crap happens when you are thin too.

Again, you ask, what will Amy do from here?  Well this weekend I am going to go run a race and spend some much needed time with my gays (you know, my gay boyfriends).  Every girl needs her gays; they help keep everything in check including my hair and style.

I want to say thank you to all my friends that have been so nice to check in on me and thanks to my friends that try to make me laugh and smile.  And for those of you wondering, no there isn’t someone else in my life, but there is the idea of someone else and for now that is enough.  I realize Gary would like you to think otherwise but just because he says it, does not make it true.  

I guess this too shall pass (I really hate that saying).  You know, a few years ago a boy I dated in high school sent me a Facebook message with an apology.  It was very nice and just said he was sorry about how he had treated me back when we dated because I had been so sweet to him and he didn’t appreciate it ( I actually have heard similar apologies like this before from guys I dated in high school and college).  I wrote him back and told him that it was ok, because 17 year old hearts heal quickly.  Well now I know 34 year old hearts heal too.